Narrating the Nepali
budget entailed reading about the ways in which the Nepali government
would influence many different parts of Nepal with large sums of
money. The coverage of the whole of Nepal, such a huge territory to
be governed, and the play of large sums of money to help this
territory undoubtedly gave a power-trip to the individuals who
narrated the budget.
However, the experience
of having a power-trip is different from the experience of feeling
actual power. And importantly, the experience of feeling power, or
even more crucially, of becoming powerful, is highly suppressed in
Nepali politics and state-based activities. Nobody involved in Nepali
politics and state-based activities is allowed to feel actual power,
but there are plenty of figures within the halls where decisions are
made that experience power-trips. In the case of the narrating the
budget, the power-trip will be sustained, celebrated and historically
established as a major political event, yet feeling actual power
would have been a far greater experience, and it would entail
sidestepping etiquette and order in an otherwise formal political
event, eventually sidestepping the whole of field of politics itself.
Actual power is not constrained by the performance of the role of a
powerful figure, but it moves beyond the field of the political, and
makes visible the pleasure derived from engagement with the
political. Had there been a feeling of actual power in the narrating
of the Nepali budget, we would have seen more excitement and more
informality in addressing the audience.
It is clear that actual
power did not feature into the performance of the narration of the
Nepali budget. The most crucial role and strategy in the suppression of actual power was played by the other figures in the
national-political positions, especially the politicians and
statesmen in the audience as the budget was being narrated. One could
see that these people were inattentive, talking among themselves, and
perhaps even asleep as the Nepali budget was being narrated. It is in
a scenario where the audience to a political performance is for all
purposes passive that there is no actual power for the narrator,
rather only a power-trip supported by fantasies of an attentive
audience is generated. Yet if one wanted to really appreciate actual
power in this narrating of the Nepali budget, one would have to go to
the previous night, when perhaps the narrator stood before the mirror
in his room, with the budget document in hand, and narrated the
budget before his image in the mirror. This narration to the
mirror-image is not simply the rehearsal to an actual political
performance, it is in fact the political act itself. For we
know, following Lacan's writings on the mirror stage, that we are jealous of our
mirror-image, and we actually compete with this mirror-image, so that before a
mirror-image there is an actual power game, with the possibility of gaining actual power if the image is somehow defeated in this power
game. If the narrator felt he was better than his own mirror-image, then he
gained actual power, and his relationship with his mirror-image will have a
bigger impact on Nepal politics and state-based activities than the
narration before a passive audience would.